#13

I wish I could read your mind, so I could love and treated you right, so that I won't get hurt, and then you're not going away, and we won't feel any of this, we could be together without feel any pain, and each of us never feeling how is it feels to be in love with anyone else again, and we could be happier if we're together. So I'm not crying whenever I miss the smell of your skin, the colour of your lips, or what your hair look like. Or maybe the way you walk, or the way you laugh hard, something small like, the way you look at me? The way you hug me when I cry, the way you touch my hand. Like, these fingers only fit with yours. When you smile, it's like the whole world give me some kind of peaceful feeling. I don't what kind of this feeling, but you need to know, it's hard without you here. And I miss you when you're not around, when you're not smiling at me anymore. It's breaking my heart apart when we're not talking anymore. I'm feeling so stupid for letting you go. I don't know. I don't know. What-you think it was easy for me to have enough courage to talk to you that night? You think it was easy for me to letting you go doing whatever you want? Everyday is like a goddamn marathon day without you. I was alone and I don't know anymore what I should be doing. It hurts me a lot to see you likes other girls when I'm currently standing in front of your face. Or maybe I'm just a ghost for you, I'm nothing? I don't know what to say anymore.. I don't think you'd understand how much I need you here right now.